Thursday, May 9, 2013

A Very Tight Place.


What if you found out that your father had a relationship with another woman not so long ago?
Of course it hurts like hell, like you've been shot in the chest a billion times. And your heart shatters in a million pieces.

A few days following that shock, everything felt tighter inside our small house.  And I just had an upsetting argument with my dad less than 24 hours ago. I’m just not sure why simple things could turn into monster-sized disagreements. And I lost my temper and shouted everything I bottled inside my heart for a very long time. Of course I was hurting- for myself, my siblings and my mom. Hate is such a BIG word but I must admit that it’s what I felt towards the very person who is responsible for my life.

But do I regret everything? No.
This place still feels tight like a room full of strangers and I don’t know how to get away.

But eventually I will.
Someday I will understand everything. Maybe I’m too young to concern myself with such adult issues.

And when the time comes, I will never be like him.
I will never be like him.

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